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30 August 2017 @ 03:12 am
Here's a list I recently compiled after a little more research. I usually leave things written in my notebook, but seeing as I'm trying to utilize this journal a bit more I thought - why not just list them here for easier access? Duh.

! active )
Current Music: Special K, Placebo
Current Mood: accomplished
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29 August 2017 @ 10:20 pm
I have to wonder if the animanga rp community is dead on DW. :( In my off-time I started creating muse journals and have my own musebox (under construction), checking where I can for active communities. I know school is about to start back up again and that's probably why games have slowed down. A majority are now OC-based and I think I played in an OC community once? But I lost so much interest that I never even played. My PB was Katherine Moennig because I was on a big L Word kick and I just love her and her character Shane (even though Shane can be a shithead). I would probably use her again if the ingenuity ever comes to me - and that's on all possible OC accounts. I don't feel inclined to join those type of games because it's just not for me. I'm hoping one day a mix of desperation + frustration will get the best of me and I'll buckle so I can stop running into all of these dead ends! 

I'm looking forward to having the house to myself tomorrow. Dad will be staying at the comic shop all day, enjoying comics and hanging around familiar faces. I'll likely clean up his room and then briefly clean the rest of the house. I didn't sleep all night - the night before - and I was sweeping + mopping all the floors at 4AM, hahaha. So, at least I don't have to do that which gives me other things to focus on!

Oh yeah and - my sleeping schedule is so jacked right now that I'm really glad I don't have a 9-5 job or school. Although now that I think of it, I wouldn't be suffering these horrid sleep patterns if I felt like I had some structure in my liiiiiife. 

Current Mood: exhausted
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23 August 2017 @ 02:38 am
I spent the past few days reading up and learning the basics of these, three, rpgs only to discover that one of them was run by nit-picky buttheads and the others were far more complicated than I had anticipated. I went thru the array of affiliates from each site and looked things over to see if there's a fit. The three I linked to were really the only ones I felt that I could possibly "jive" with. I think my problem right now is that I've been re-reading guidelines and threads so much, eager to grasp everything, that my mind is now mush and I feel like I don't wanna bother anymore. It's a lot to take in. I'm used to a much simpler process and lax atmosphere, I guess. But now it seems the rpg world has changed a bit - and that's not really a bad thing. In fact, it looks like people make an effort to really write instead of throwing up whatever kind of reply they can muster. Oh, and no one really rps actual canon characters on these sites (sometimes maybe), but instead create their own and use face claims from anime/manga series. That's different.

I don't know what triggered it, but thru all of this I got to thinking about the first manga I ever read: Angel Sanctuary. I rp'd so many characters from that series. It's what basically ignited my interest in the first place. I didn't want to turn away that warm, fuzzy nostalgia that started creeping in, so I looked up old AS communities on LJ, and then searched the AS tags on tumblr. To my surprise, the series was getting lots of attention about four years ago. I'm sad I wasn't around to share my shade of obsession with a that group of people. My timing has always been terrible. At any point - all that looking around brought me to an archive of an old RP comm I was apart of '08-'09 on LJ... right here on DW. Freakin' sweet! Cue the urgency to look thru threads that featured my characters and everyone that exchanged with them the most..... and it was embarrassing and hilarious all the same. I thought I was such a magnificent writer back then, HA, no I wasn't. I was just decent.

It feels like my timing is consistently off, but maybe another wave of like-minded people will come around and I'll be "with it" enough to be apart of it and get to experience that again. I feel like all this delving and searching is leading me somewhere. It's either that, or I'm letting my hopeful self run away with an extremely silly idea. I have enough common sense to not deny reality and that it is perpetual, unlike these rando periods of inspiration to bring enticement to something long dead and buried. 
Current Mood: anxious